Everyone has nightmares. Some are forgotten, some are lifelong. I also have them quite often. Most of them I forget the very next day. But there is one I couldn't forget till now though it happened a long time ago when I was a kid. The very thought of those small yet horrible incidents haunt me even today.
"Hey, come on, lets play inside", he invited me to his home like any other day. I couldn't read his intentions at that time.
"Will you get me chocolates?", I innocently asked and declared,"Only then I'll come to play with you". I thought it was a genuine demand of a 7 years kid.
"Yes I do have. Come on, get in", he played his trick.
We used to play for hours together. At some times he was very caring while at times he behaved rude. I couldn't understand his volatile moods.
"Come here, sit on my lap", he would ask me and I'd do as directed.
I thought he loved me. At that time I couldn't distinguish between loving and love making. I thought I was playing with him. But it was him who was playing with me, my body. Though sometimes it felt something was going wrong but I couldn't offend. I could only wait till he was finished. I couldn't understand anything and used to keep a demure smile. I was more interested in the chocolates.
"Well, that's a case of pedophilia", my Psychiatrist told me when I finished describing my nightmare to her.
"Pedophilia?", I asked to clarify the term which was alien to me.
"Its the activity of having sexually involved with the children", she clarified.
I was shocked to know the fact that someone sexually harassed me in my childhood. "But how to overcome this nightmare now?", I asked angrily.
"Cool down, there is nothing to worry about now. It was just a phase of time that has passed a long time ago. All you need to do is that never think about those incidents. The more you'll think about it the more it will haunt you", she showed a genuine care and attention.
I walked back to the home and wished I never loved chocolates. I somehow get to know to overcome my nightmare.
P.S. - It is just a piece of fiction but a bitter reality in our society in which innocent children are sexually harassed by their neighbors, relatives or even their own family members. The child doesn't understand at first but never forgets when he does after some time. The nightmare follows to haunt him for the rest of his life.